Hello, are you still there?

I didn't even have the slightest idea if there's someone on the other end of the line. I just kept on talking and talking and talking till the urge to lick my lips and pause arose. Only when I decided to stop and listen to the silence did I begin to question if there is any presence on the other line at all.

Things have been better since my last post here, which is a distant six months past. Law school is still a pain in the ass and the unending social dilemmas of people around me still pester me. I also managed to squeeze a part time work courtesy of a college professor. But things have been working out on its own.

Too busy to actually study or work, I started to read my previous entries. The feeling was unexplained. Thinking of those entries made me grin.

It was then that I realize its not about having someone on the other line to talk to, it is the feel of comfort in expressing yourself free, the possibility of storing delusional memories and living a world without restraint that made me talk.

So there, I trace the unscathed memories and picked up the dial.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.

Whether you'll be spending next Monday with someone special or not, try to read Danton Remoto's article that came out last week. He quotes Yeats and Neruda so please take time.

http://www.abs-cbnnews.com/insights/02/04/11/love-actually

My cinema OC-ness clarifies though that Il Postino is nominated in 1995 and not 1997:) Plus, he referred to Andy Garcia reading Neruda's classic poem. I did some search and found this:

Enjoy the mall sales everyone!:D

Someday this pain will be useful

Here's to that kid who tried his hardest to be good enough for everyone; who spent hours watching movies and reading books to look for that perfect quote; who listened to the same song dozen of times because the lyrics meant a lot; whose wish every 11:11pm was wasted on someone who will never care.

Positions

The condition I had with myself and my mom was to try law school for a year and do whatever afterwards. A compromise since last year I was too eager to work, and my parents too, uhm, motivated to have a lawyer in the family. So I decided to take a full-time job next year while taking law school at night. Social suicide it is.

CubaoX/College friends

In line with guiding me daw, we evaluated our batchmates who are currently earning more than my friends are. We talked about Poveda girl who earns 6 digits in SG,a friend who gives Kitkat every time we see each other and those people in the yearbook with the most-likely-to-succeed tag.

Friend1: How about (he-who-must-not-be-named)?

Friend2: Diba executive na siya sa (research firm)?

To be clear, despite being in the same college and same circle of friends, nobody knew about the thing I shared with he-who-must-not-be-named.

Friend3: Dude, your a god with research and writing! Try mo kaya.

Friend2: Mahirap daw pasukin yung sa kanya eh.

Me: Ah. (In my mind- I know how it feels. Asshole.)

New Year/ High School friends

Since we were literally dispersed across the country, some with better school and degrees, bragging and comparing was always part of equation. Well, for me, I learned to keep my mouth shut unless I want to get the basta-UP-mayabang stare. So while talking about jobs, they went to discuss climbing the corporate ladder:

Friend1: Okay namang magsimula sa baba. At least experience.

Friend2: Syempre mas okay kung nasa taas na agad.

Friend3: Ok na ako sa middle ground mag start.

Friend1: No, basta ako I believe its better to be in the bottom.

Me: No! Mas okay kayang maging top!

I was laughing my ass off they have no idea why.

So if you know someone who can offer me a job in QC which can finance my daily coffee craving and my book and movie fascination, do tell me. I don't bite.

Alumni homecoming .1

O Kung Bakit hindi na Nabigyan ng sequel ang TGIS at Gimik

Cast:
Odessa- seksing seksing nanay ng grupo, may kakaibang taste sa mga lalaking hanggang kili kili niya lang, ampon, laking palengke
Ray- malibog, nagtatago sa mama's boy image since grade 1, ex ni Arah
Anne- bestfriend ni Greg, matampuhin, moody, naghi-high socks na parang madre
Greg- pasensyoso, corny, nakipagbreak sa ex nung 3rd monthsary para patunayang more than friends sila ni Anne
Nan- babaeng natrap sa machong katawan ng lalaki, never naaasar, mahaba ang kamay, gusto ng mga mahahabang bagay
Yuna- boyish, mahilig sa musika, madaming lihim, nanununtok
Ako- genius ng barkada, Dr. Love

Recurring Cast:
Arah- best friend ko, crush ng bayan, ex ni Ray, may 5PM na curfew sa 1800's parents
Ian- ang lalaking pinagnanasahan ni Nan, Felix Bakat
Nelly- ka MU ni Ian, conservative, spoiled brat, nangabilang probinsiya para bumili lang ng prom dress
Baby- madaming pimples, walang tigil ang bunganga, nagmamaganda sabi ni Nan
Miko- may lahing hapon kaya tinitilian ng mga kababaihan pero jologs at kumakanta ng Cueshe at Hale, niligawan si Arah
at kung sino sino pa